~tIrEd~

Cape,letih,ngantuk,kurang tidur
Pengen tidur,males,sumpek,bete
Banyak pikiran,pengen ngungsi

Hfffhhhh....
Rasanya pengen pergiiiii for a vacationnnn lageeee
Pengen refreshing
Pengen tiap hari bangun selama seminggu
Kagak ada pikiran
Tenang
Santai
Seminggu aja okaylah
Buat semuanya lebih plong

Knapa orang musti banyak pikiran????
Knapa gak bisa santai aja y???? Ribet banget kehidupan ini
Fiuhhhhh

Well,kmrn outing with ida,yuli and indra ke merdeka walk
Lumayan enjoy soalnya udah lama juga gak keluar bareng mereka
Dan yah,gua bisa cerita banyak sama indra
Since kita udah lama sekali gak ketemu mojok
Rasanya plong sekali after share banyak ke indra.

Well,kayaknya gua harus menata hidup gua balik.
Pengen punya kegiatan sendiri
Buat gak mikir macam2
Gua juga pengen semua bisa terlewat lebih cepet
Egois sih
Karena pengen cepet tau apa yg tersembunyi di balik ini semua
Dan well,gua gak pengen waste my time dengan gitu2 aja
Time goes so fast
Must appreciate every moment

Cia you:)

~New Gown~

Hip hip horrayyyy:)
So glad can find new gown for cong's wedding on june
First I tot I'll wearing my old gown if can't search for d new one
Thanx for seyi and ching
For accompany me and give some opinion for this new gown
Buy this with discount for 30% off:) hip hip horray:)

Today quite nice holiday for me
Try new place for our coffee break just now
We go to excelso
The ice coffee mocha offering is still nice
But still like starbucks one:p

Dinner @ sushi tei again
Spent d nite with yen and ton also
Playin with my nephew,Aldrick
He's really funny one
Hahaha

Waiting until my eyes close together now
Ahahahha
Dunno why
Still can't sleep rite now
Exciting for tommorow nite outing with d gals

~Back to Normal Life~

Today is friday again
A day tat I can stay relax whole day
A day tat I can enoy spent in my favourite coffee house
A day tat I can spent my time easily with my crazy beloved cousins

Have a nice sleep last night
And getting fresh in d morning
Yes I'm tinkin a lot yesterday
Jim's advice always running in my mind
And I kept remind myself to be strong
I'll be back again with my normal life
Yes,I'll be back again to normal

Waiting for tommorow
Will spent the weekend with my gals
Indra,Ida,and Yuli
We'll go to Merdeka Walk
It's our first hang out in d saturday night
Hope it'll be fun for us

~In & Out~

Kemaren perasaanku paling kacau
Rasanya gak tau musti ngapain
Kiri salah kanan salah
Gua memilih diam
Perasaanku takut
Gak nyaman sama sekali

Sampe malemnya Jim tanyain
"Apa yang terjadi"
Gua cerita seadanya
Tapi dia bisa ngertiin
Dan bener2 nentramin hati gua kmrn
Thanx banget ada dia disamping gua kmrn

Gua harus berani masuk dan berani keluar
Gua tau karena pada awalnya gua gak nanggepin semuanya
Makanya pada awalnya itu gua santai banget
Tapi semakin jauh gua kenal kepribadiannya
Pelan tapi pasti,tanpa sadar gua tau gua dah masuk
Dan gua tau akhir ini gua jadi kalap karena itu
Gua jadi serba salah harusnya gimana
Tiap hari pikiran jadi gak menentu
Pikiranku ada pada dia
Dan itu yg membuat hari gua jadi kacau
Pikiran kacau
Hati kacau
Semua kacau

Gua jadi berharap banyak setelah itu
Gua pengen dia bisa begitu
Gua pengen dia bisa begini
Sepertinya gua jadi tamak sendiri
Dan merasa kecewa kalo dia gak lakukan apa2
Gua pengen dia punya initiative
Tapi kembali lagi pada point utama
Apakah dengan 2x outing itu means everything to us?
Apakah outing itu dirasa special juga pada dia?
Gua rasa gua yg jadi gila dan berlebihan
Gua bener2 kacau

Jimmy cuman bilang gua harus tenang
Dan mencoba kembali seperti dulu
Coba control diri gua dulu
Untuk tidak selalu ada buat dia
Apakah dia bisa merasa kehilangan?
Dan kalo dia merasakan hal yg sama
Dia juga tau kemana akan mencari gua
Well,gua tau jimmy bener
Dan sesusah apapun ke depannya
Gua tau gua harus turutin jimmy

Jimmy bilang untuk masa2 sekarang
Dia tau gua sulit
Tapi dia akan temenin gua selama ini berlangsung
Well,it's touching dear:)
Thanx for ur accompany and support
I just want to remind myself
Tat I'm really lucky to have u as my fren in my whole life:)
U r really d angel tat God sent to me
The greatest gift from God I know:)
Ganbate xian
Ganbate

~Should I explain it clearly~

Last night I have a chat again
As I decide it before
I want to being simply
And not complicated one
I just want to do something that I want to
That I wish to
Dun want to tink it as a complicated manner
Since we both still a fren???
I want to just be myself:)

I've told JY about it last night
When we both share sometin inside
He laughed at me but still support me in a way
Said tat I should just say the truth tat I miss him
No need to pretend...???ahahaha
When I really feel that way:p
I said yes..maybe I'll do it someday to kick d rule..ahaha

Well,Sometimes no need to explain it clearly
No need to clarify anything
There's the only way to know everthing
Just Feel It
I said that to him
And ...he's been confused about wut I say
Intimidating???? Ahahaha
I just said it again
"Just feel it"
Then you'll know the answer:)

~I am who I am~

Lately I try to do somtin tat I don't want to
I just felt tat it's not really comfortable at all
I know they all just want me to have some trick
Just to know faster wut's d result
Does he feel somtin?

It's hard to being sometin u don't even wish to
And I just feel weird to be like this
So just decide to being myself
A simply way to be,not a complicated one
But still have to say thanx to them who always care with me
Especially Jimmy and Dodo.
Thanx for always being there for me,and for all ur kind advice and support
I really cherish it buddy:)

Here I go as usually
Being there always available
Wish tat somtin could be happen between us
I'm waiting for ur initiative
Miss u so much dear
Miss u so much
Hope d chemistry will happen soon

~'d skenario~

~24.04.09~

Buy "BP" for W,just drop by @ ubin mas.A bit surprise to see W in a casual style:)
W just back from gym.
I buy d Blackberry Bold 9000 today,and running it for chat until 1 am:p
I said a big surprised seeing him in a casual style and hey.."I like it":)
And for d BP case,it's a funny one knowing him eat for almost 8,hahaha,he said I buy too many wor:p
But I just tot maybe he can share with his parents mah:)he joke and say I treat him for breakfast,lunch,and dinner oredi,means tat he eat BP for 3 times a day to finish it all.ahahha

~08.05.09~

Our second times outing together.This time he wear a casual style one,and make me so impressed with him:)
We both wearing the same colour,dark yellow:)Dunno whether it's just a coincidence or he really put my words and opinion in his mind y:p
He pick me up @ Sun's lobby around 1 pm,and we go for a lunch @ TW cafe,as he ever recommended me for the chicken steak,arrive there around 1 plus.
Well,TW cafe is quite simply in design,a kinda romantic place maybe,coz I see each dine table have 1 rose,creating a romantic atmosphere.
We order chicken steak and empek2.The chicken steak is quite nice,but empek2 not really:)
We both turn much relax for this second outing:)Share a lot,about gadget and everthings:)
After that,he accompanied me to buy a leather case for blackberry.He knows d place which is cheaper than others.So yah just tat all for d outing.

~10.05.09~

Start to be an invisible girl around..wan to know wut's step further later:)
My eagerness to know more about d day after tommorow...Hope I can sit calm down waiting until my limit time y:p

Somewhere Out There

Somewhere Out there
Beneath d pale moon light
Someone's thinkin of me
And loving me tonight

Somewhere out there
Someone's saying a prayer
Tat we'll find one another
In tat big somewhere out there

Love this song so much:)
Someday somewhere sometimes...
Waiting for d best tings to come
Prayin for d rite one to fill in
Show me for d best way to go through..
Teach me for d best decision ..
Let me know easily d sign and heart..
Just to make all tings go as our heart flow..
I'm waiting for...

Comin' back again

It's been a long time didn't write anything here.Didn't realize it until I opened it again today:p
So many things happened around last year and this last half year.
Like my frenship relationship with indra,yuli,ida,huili to be one step further,we're mostly seems like gud sister oredi,especially with indra and ida.
Will cherish every moment with both of you.May it will grow stronger and stronger year by year.
And my last december trip to singapore,spent fun time gather with my long lost fren,Lies,and my buddy Jimmy,and also my best sister,kelty:)
Thanx a lot for the time and accompanied when I was there.
Met Jim for the first time and I felt great to know you.Thanx God can give me a chance to get fun with u,and for the treat and guideness:) hehe
Our friendship grow stronger than before,thanx bro for ur care and accompany a long d way,and for ur such great support to me when I was down.
Thanx for being a very gud listener of mine:)
And for my big bro guosheng,congrats for d wedding on 12 okt 2008 with Melina,and now oredi become Yuki's daddy and mommy:)
Also for my long lost fren,Awi,thanx for ur message greetings for last x'mas.
From there,we both can keep in touch and built back or relationship.
Thanx for always being kind and helpfull;)
I feel great we can stay closer than past time,share lots of tings together,kidding all d time when we chat,and for all ur concern in my life stuff.
Really happy can spent d time with u,celebrate ur bday together @ sushi tei,and watching jackie chan movie "shinzuku incidence",thanx for all d treat:)
Feel eagerness to know wut will happen along this year:)May my dreams come true:)
Cause I know slowly but sure,u've been stay in my heart and mind:)