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Tuesday, October 31, 2006

*退后*

退后
歌手:周杰伦 专辑:依然范特西
天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后
并没有更自由
酸酸的空气 守住我们的距离
一幕醉心的结局 像呼吸般无法停息
抽屉泛黄的日记
找到了回忆 那笑容是傻气
你我的过去 被深深真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情 存心的眼泪是多余
我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺
全被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情会一定带去

*话题*

前几天才跟Ver 讨论过
该怎么去面对
~我们喜欢的人 - 但不能在一起~
当时的他跟我说
*若你已经能把他当朋友来看待的话*
*那就见面联络吧*
*但如果心还觉得放不下*
*还是保持距离比较好吧*
*免得尴尬*
*自己也难受*

说实在的
我同意这样的想法
但有时候
真得很难去做到

说我自己好了
真不知道该怎办才好
不久之后
我还是该面对他
还是要跟他见面
现在的我
真的觉得
有些害怕
害怕我没办法隐藏
怕他看透
我心里的一切
怕之后的我们
变得尴尬
我真的不想这样

远距离的我们
还保持联络
习惯用写信联络的我们
当然跟见面不同
写信的方式
对我而言
没什么大不了
什么都能说
反正他看不到
感觉不到
但如果要见面谈话呢
我怕我没那么大方
接受所有的一切吧
这就是我的弱点

我想
我还没准备好
你说
我如何能说起
*关于你和她*

应该还做不到吧
我假装不出来
我笑不出来

有时候
还想起
你跟我说
*对不起*
*已选择了她*
*辜负了我*
*委屈*
*等等*

还是很痛

真不知道
到时候
会怎样

我还是会全力
当你想要的那个我
*你的妹妹*
我知道
有时候
要让喜欢的人幸福
总该牺牲自己的快乐
就欺骗自己
委屈自己
这就是
所谓的付出

说起Ver 呢
又是另一个故事了
彼此相爱的他们
就因为女方爸爸反对的原因
害他们两没办法在一起
原因只是钱的问题
事情闹大之后
就分手了
就这么简单的
被破坏了

虽然分手了
但彼此还爱着对方
好无奈

Ver 真的不知道该怎么面对她
我了解他的心情
他的苦衷
不想让她抱着希望
因为终究没结果的
Ver 说
他能为她做的
只是退后

我们真的分享了好多
这样无奈的我们
只能祈祷
希望我们两
也会有快乐的一天
已经不想
太浪费时间
在感情的事了
还是想想别的事情好了
路还很长
就加油吧

Monday, October 30, 2006

*Updated...*

Whuzz…1 month oredi liao didn’t update anything…
Geez…..busy me…huhuhu…
Everyday just work and work
Till I lazy liao to update everything
Hohoho…
Now tryin to flash back all my memory
See wutelse to write down..
Hehehe..

(1)
than’x to auntie LONG
for d gift
*bag*and*acc*
from HK

(2)
Sorry to Ying
Can’t find even a day
To meet up with you
Sigh…
Both of us really busy wor..
Next time I guess can liao lar…

(3)
a holiday to me
21.10.2006
attend Siu’s wedding
*Congrats*
Mornin 7.30 with Yeng
Goin to Medan to attend Siu’s wedding
At GMI Gloria church
Start d ceremony at 9 plus
End at 10 plus
We all take some photos
Nice^^

Go to Sun plaza with Yeng
Well..just takin her shop shop lar
This is d 1st time Yeng come to Sun
N wut next she goin to say is
*this mall is d duplicate of Taman Anggrek*
hohoho….n I say YES….
Hangin around till 11 plus
Yeng askin me to have a lunch
Yupe…eat dimsum at Nelayan
Yo…eat a lot ya…hehehe
Then go back to Binjai with Jian Hua n Shuang2

Arrive Binjai oredi 2 pm
With Yeng again hurry liao
Goin to salon
Wanna make our hair curl ichh
Till 5 pm all done liao
Back home lar
Preparing ourselves again
Make up lar..bla bla…
Complicated…haha
Just to attend Siu’s wedding party wor…
女人就是这么麻烦

at 6 plus Wenliang pickin us up
till UNILAND oredi 7.30 pm
there meet Verry’s mom
I greet his mom Happy Birthday
But his mom back teasin me
说我无心祝福她
如果有心的话
从早上就得发讯息给她了
哈哈
然后我还说
*我不知道阿姨的号码吗*
then she said
I can get her number from Verry mah…
Horhorhor…
Really 没办法
Then give up lar
Heheh…

Then Ver’s mom askin me to help Ver
Hope Ver can go out from d sadness
Step forward n getting marriage
Hohoho…
When I met up with ver
I said all to him…
Wut next…
Only smile…hahhaa
Tat nite Ver can’t join d dinner
Coz wanna celebrate his Mom’s birthday
And he just waiting me there until I come
Just wanna talk a while with me wor
Hehehe…crazy er…

And 1 more thing
Tat nite I meet up with Nai n gf
Also Hen n gf
I’m getting shock liao
Coz Hen’s gf also work in d same company with Siu wor
And…at 1st…
I did’nt realize tat girl was his gf
Coz ..ok..i think he still d same as d past
All his attitude also same…
Nothing change with him…sigh
Sad theme is..seems tat he dun respect his gf ler
Can’t describe it all…
Just see it with my eyes..
Why this guy could be like this
Luckily past time I reject to have a relationship with him
Hmm…
And 3 more days
When Siu’s callin me from her office and tell me more
About tat girl..
Siu said tat girl *matre* wor…sigh
No comment but just hearin d story lar…

And comin up d gud news
*Nai n gf will getting marriage at this comin May’07*
CONGRATS^^

Back to Binjai at 10 plus
Really tired
But in d car
We really have a nice conversation
With CEN n Sing hok
Tat crazy Cen really mad liao
Horhrorho…
Just laugh..laugh…laugh

(4)
buzy day for me and dad
goin to the store lar
Lebaran full of customer who wanna buy acc gold
From ring,necklace,bla bla
Tired…really…
Can’t sit back but just stand up for a day
2 days helping in d store really make me tired
till I can’t even reply fren’s msg
sorry to irvan 1st
really got no mood
tired all day long

(5)
Rest 3 days at home
From 24 – 26
Wut a nice holiday..
Spent more time with my parents
Hohoho…
Eat,sleep,watching TV,
Hehehe…wut a nice day to me…hihihi

(6)
27.10.06
with Yeng n Seyi
three of us goin to medan
shop shop
to brastagi supermarket,pasar rame,till Sun
ok…nice nice…
eat a lot…
from asinan salak,bakso,satepadang,mie udang
till bakso sapi
sigh…all Yeng’s favo food wor…hehehe
shop till 10 plus nite…
go back home
really share a lot that day…hehe
aiya…
Yeng really enjoy eatin chocholate
At fine chocolate * handhorffs*
Hehe…esp d Chocolate fondue…
Yeah…Jakarta can’t find this chocolate house lerr
Only at Medan n Aussie
Hihihihi

(7)
29.10.06
goin church
there meet VIVI…
ok…Ver get shock when he know
Vivi’s comin
Till I have to accompany him after tat
Feeling weird with him..
Dunno why..
Share a lot with me yest
From 4 till 6 plus
Be strong fren
 
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